Kicking Against the Dome

If you are vaguely familiar with Stephen King's book, Under the Dome, which also became an awful TV series; you know about this idea of a town trapped by a dome. It's impenetrable and cuts the town off from the outside world. Now, I have not gotten to finishing the book, so I don't really know where the dome came from. (Part of the reason for that is I got tired of reading the book, so didn't really care.)

I imagine this is similar to Christian sub-culture. By having Christian schools, bookstores, universities, movies, music, etc, we have created a culture in which we can live out our days and never really get a sense of the real world. Please notice I didn't put the word world in quotes because the effect of this dome is to actually cut ourselves off from the actual, real world. I remember this was something I was becoming sensitive to even as I attended a Christian high school. Some friends and I talked about never being a part of this sub-culture. However, through life events, I find myself having completed about 25 years of teaching, all within Christian education.

Hindsight tells me it stemmed from the bullying I was a victim of during my years in the public system. For me, Christian high school was my escape. It was positive in that the bullying stopped and also positive in that I had some very wise teachers who did not let me shy away from "controversial" subjects such as evolution. In that Christian high school was planted the seeds of the constant questioning that is swirling in my thoughts day and night. I can't get away from it. The downside was that the idea of teaching in the public system scares me to this day, probably because I associate it with being bullied.

Beginning with evolution and the origins of life, I became a follower of Christ who was constantly kicking against the dome. I became open to the fact that the downside of all this "Christian" as an adjective, was that we were cutting ourselves off from becoming part of the world. We have so misused the verse about "not being of the world" that we have created a complete world for ourselves. This world is artificial and not based on reality. It is also a world that is under threat as more and more people wake up to the distortions of truth and misapplications of the Bible that are used to justify scientific ignorance, homophobia, contempt of women, immigrants, and the poor.

(In order to preserve this world and maintain it's power, because, let's face it, the Evangelical Church = the Religious Right = Conservative Political Parties in many Western countries. This is why the "church" is so quick to back  Donald Trump. Truth is secondary to maintaining power. It's a truth in all religious fundamental movements, too.)

Where am I at, personally? I struggle with going to a church that I have lost faith in. Meanwhile, I am becoming stronger in my faith. Sometimes the most stressful part of the week is going to church, so I skip it. It's difficult because my family is so involved in the church that I'm not sure what to say. I think and believe differently than most of my co-workers at the Christian school I work at, even though I believe there are very good things happening. I think and believe differently that my wife and daughters, even though I love them fiercely. What to do with that?

Blessed are the peacemakers. Maybe that's my mantra. I just finished reading Peter Enns' book, The Bible Tells Me So: Why Defending Scripture Has Made Us Unable to Read it. All scripture should be seen through the lens of Jesus' life and teachings. I think that's where I need to start. Begin examining the life and example of someone else who kicked against the dome.

Why I Am No Longer "Evangelical"

I can't do it anymore. I can't identify or be a part of the the ultra-powerful, ultra-rich movement called Evangelical. I reject it. #weneedanewreformation

Why? I think part of it has to do with the Manhattan Declaration which was posted Nov 20, 2009. Basically, it's a call for Christians to unite under the issues of abortion, marriage, and "religious freedom." The only reason I can understand why this document "needed' to be published was the election of President Barack Obama and the fear mongering that came from places like Fox News, and some of many of the signatories of the MD, itself. This document made me realize that the evangelical church had lost it's moorings and continued the drift away from an approach that allows Christians to be in discussion on these important issues and settles them.

The first two reasons, abortion and "traditional" marriage, are not points in which all Christians agree. They never will. There are Christians who reject both and Christians who accept both. Christians, in this diverse, inter-connected world have no excuse for sticking their heads in the sand and being this uninformed about these subjects. Also, I have found in looking at both subjects have many lies supporting their version of the "truth." For example, the old lie that abortion causes breast cancer or reduces the chances of having children in the future. These are not true, yet the so-called pro-life movement clings to these. As for marriage, the historical development of "traditional" (aka man-woman) marriage is not as ancient as the authors of the declarations would lead you to believe. (I guess I should be putting links up, but I say just google outside your comfort zone, evangelicals, and realize the whole rich, diverse world that is actual Christianity.)

The third reason is "religious freedom." Looking again and again at the Evangelical Party the Republican Party we find that "religious freedom" basically means the freedom to be a bigoted, intolerant, uninformed "Christian" without any push back. Say you're "pro-life" and you will get push back in a Democratic society. That's not restricting religious freedom, that's just natural and healthy debate. Not having religious displays on government property or saying prayers before city council meetings is just realizing that historically, the USA was founded as a secular nation to avoid the squabbles that different religious beliefs bring up.

What the Manhattan Declaration is doing was solidifying the connection between a political party and a church. Remind you of something? I'm thinking of how powerful and influential and just plain rich the Catholic Church was in the 1500s. You know, that same church that inspired Martin Luther to nail those 95 Theses to the door. Ironically, the rich and powerful and influential church of today is claiming that it is the nailer. Nothing could be farther from the truth. 

Where am I in all this? As near as I can tell, I can affirm the Apostles' Creed as the actual declaration in which we find common ground: 

I believe in God, the Father almighty,
creator of heaven and earth.

I believe in Jesus Christ, God’s only Son, our Lord,
who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, died, and was buried;
he descended into hell.
On the third day he rose again;
he ascended into heaven,
he is seated at the right hand of the Father,
and he will come to judge the living and the dead.

I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the holy catholic and apostolic Church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,

    and the life everlasting. Amen.

Now, even some of those statements may be up for debate among sincere Christ followers. For example: "What does virgin actually mean in that time in history, in that culture?" We shouldn't be afraid of expansive questioning. We should be afraid of when essentially political statements, like the Manhattan Declaration become some sort of add-on to what makes a "real" Christian. I'm beginning to use #weneedanewreformation on Twitter as a result of all this thinking. I think it's time. However, anything beyond these statements is just an add-on.

(Further reflection: Read this open letter by Frank Schaeffer to the GOP and follow Frank Schaeffer's writings to understand how the Religious Right has risen to such power in the US. I recommend his books, especially Crazy for God which shows how the views espoused by the MD evolved since the 1970s.)

The Truth Project: The Beginning of Something

I never got around to finishing my Master's degree. I think some of it had to do with my living with depression and anxiety. What really kept me back was a focus. Here I was coming to the end and I had no idea what I was going to focus on, so I stopped.

Now, I think I may have started to get the lenses in focus. Something is becoming clearer and maybe that will lead me to finish a degree someday, but I think I will use the blog to start to work out my thoughts and to get me writing again.

I call this focus The Truth Project, for now. I am becoming fascinated by discovering the truth behind positions, especially, positions taken up by the Christian Right. I'm seeing that truth (as in facts) are regularly being distorted to support untenable positions. I was struck by this in two cases.

The first case is outlined in the book, Only a Theory: Evolution and the Battle for America's Soul by Kenneth R. Miller. The court case happened in 2005 in Dover, PA. It spelled the end of the whole Intelligent Design movement and should have been the end of Creation Science in any rational world. The judge from that case ended up giving a severe tongue lashing to the side that represented the ID movement. They had distorted facts, twisted evidence, and dodged truth through language games. So the more "religious" side, when put up against a wall in a court of law began to, basically, lie.

The second case is the arguments against gay marriage. I need to get my links together, but, again, the side that was against was accused of distortions, denial of truth, etc. I will try to update this again, but I can tell from even my teaching experience that I find that the stability and support of the child from within the family is what makes a difference in a child's life. If there is love and a home to go to, the child will go far in school and life. If the home is broken, unstable, unpredictable, and the child is shuffled between different "homes," the chances for success become less. Not impossible, of course, but less. So where is the truth? I'm finding it is not found in the Christian Right's interpretation of marriage.

I am looking for patterns. My working hypothesis is that the Christian or Religious Right's intellectual position is under attack due to the fact that public support is weakening. The baby boomers, who seem to make up most of this belief system are literally dying off. Discovering the truth is going to be more difficult since the Christian Right do enjoy a lot of power in our media and in politics. However, I'm finding that the more I read and try to piece together facts, I'm coming down more and more strongly on the progressive side.

For the first time in a long time, I'm excited about writing and exploring deeper ideas. I may not finish the Master's, but I'm determined to look for the truth. I believe that God is the God of Truth, so I can't be on the wrong path,even though many in my Christian circles will shake their heads and believe that I'm on the road to hell.

Godsmacked

I'm taking a teachers' course this week on how to write units from a Christian perspective. Now, you may not know this, but writing and organizing a unit under one big question is hard work. It's a lot of thinking and writing collaboratively with your grade level partners that you don't normally have time for during the course of a school year.

Now, I had such high hopes for this course because it said that in the original description that you would have 3 complete units. I, and my colleagues, assumed this would save tons of time come September and have a good chunk of the year planned. I mean, 3 units can take until after Christmas to complete!

Well, as the course progressed, we found that 3 was a very high number and that "complete" meant, according to the instructor, 3 "skeletons" of units because "units are not finished until you  actually teach them. That's when you flesh them out!" Meh. What a rip-off. So the grumpies set in. I became more and more negative as the first two days went by and we were given a total of maybe one hour or so to actually write our units. I was discouraged as the instructor kept repeating and drumming into us the importance of what are called "Through Lines." For  example, one Through Line is called Servant Worker. If a unit was targeting the idea of Servant Worker, then the students would be led through an activity that involved actual service to the community.

Today, I woke up dreading today thinking that what we were to do, a field trip to Granville Island in Vancouver, would be a "time filler" that would keep us away from precious unit writing time. Our assignment  was a bit more interesting than just a way to pass a couple hours. We needed to take pictures of things that represent each Through Line and present them to class. We were broken into groups of 3. Of course we had no choice about who we went with. Teachers do this. I do this. Students hate this. I hated this, too, I realized. My group was two other guys, one I know quite well, one I just met today. Both of them love and know Granville Island well. Both of them were excited about one thing: The Granville Island Brewery.One of the guys had free passes to a tasting tour of the brewery. Now the guy I know already says, "Well, Matt doesn't drink at all." (It's true, I don't. It's for many different reasons, none of which are religious.) I said I'm not offended by it, I just won't drink it. They talk me into it and we're off to the brewery. I'm wondering what I'm getting myself into as I'm being told the beer-making process is quite fascinating in itself (Turns out it is. I know what malt and hops are now. I learned something new!)

We get there and find out that the tour had enough people and already started. The next tour is too late for us to catch our bus back on time, so we can't do the tour. The lady there (I feel sooo guilty for not remembering to ask for her name now) says she'll happily do a tasting session with us, which my two accomplices readily agree to. I go with them, thinking I will just listen and learn. She looks at me and astounds me with what she does next. She offers me a free ice tea or soda (organic, locally made, of course!). That may seem like a "so what" moment to others, but, for me, at that moment, I felt God's grace. She was acting as a Community Builder (yup, that's a Through Line) to me. She was not allowing me to feel left out and including me. I chose the root beer you see in the picture. It was really good. I felt like, "Yes, I do belong here. Right now, this is right."

I was Godsmacked while I was there. Smacked so hard that I suddenly understood, in a deeper and more profound way what these Through Lines mean. I was smacked upside the head by God through an act of generosity at, of all places, a brewery! I guess this course is worth it after all.

Hidden in Plain Sight

I'm reading The Jesuit Guide to (Almost) Everything by James Martin, SJ,  during my time here on Gabriola Island. I'm finding the books to be inspiring and reminding me that God communicates with us through our everyday experiences. I have the rental house to myself today and I've spent it walking and taking some pictures. Each one represents an encounter, a time when I felt an inward peace. God making me remember that this is a time of rest after such a challenging school year. God chooses to regularly speak to us through events, people, places. Times when we feel joy or even sadness. There seems to be more going on as we encounter joy in the little things. "In such uncommon longings, hidden in plain sight in our lives, does God call us."

I took a walk and I found these flowers, that look like small bells and I'm just fascinated by how they look. I am attracted to them just because I'm in a different place. Have I never bother to notice these flowers in Abbotsford? I don't know. I'm just enjoying them NOW. I used to be frantic about how time passed and could get quite depressed thinking that what is NOW is only a memory soon. Soon I will be home and not able to touch, smell or see these flowers or live this moment. That view of time drove me to depression. I would lose the wonder of the NOW because I knew it would soon be PAST. It's very hard to explain, but I think writers like Martin and others would lead me to realize that the accumulation of joyful times is only adding to my faith in God. Indeed, the sum total of all of these moments are deepening my understanding of God who is always NOW: "I AM".

I was on the deck reading quietly and a deer came quietly through the grass and began nibbling away only a few meters from where I was sitting. I stopped reading and enjoyed the moment and knew God was telling me to just "Be still and know that I am God." It's OK that this will be PAST. It is only adding to my understanding and bringing me closer to Someone who is never PAST. Interestingly, as I am finishing writing this, the whole family came up from the beach right up to the backyard where the one was before. Now it is two adults and one spotted fawn. I wasn't quick enough with the camera, but you'll just have to take my word for it that the trio was there.

The Rob Bell Kerfluffle

I'm finding the debate about Rob Bell's new book, Love Wins, to be very interesting and perhaps revealing of a fundamental struggle that is going on in the evangelical church (at least in North America, where the evangelical church is struggling for survival, IMHO. It's thriving and growing in other parts of the world.)

Some interesting things about this debate are that it began to get ferocious before the book was even released and many of the same things are being said by lots of people who I don't believe have read the book. I haven't read the book, either, but I'm writing about the debate about the book, so I thought it would be good to get down my pre-reading impressions first. (I did buy it. It's on my rather large "To Read in Future" pile.)

The National Post gives an interesting overview of the debate. The whole argument of the book is summed up by Bell's account of seeing a note taped to a Gandi quote that was part of a display at his church: "Reality check: he's in hell." Bell's honest questions are where the debate begins:

Within the national post interview, an evangelical writer (who I've never heard of - Jimmy Spencer - I can't help but wonder from what he says how long he will be considered "evangelical") says this about Bell:

Five hundred years ago, Martin Luther said Christians had the right to read the Bible for themselves and define it for themselves. What you’re seeing in Rob is the use of the same motif. I don’t know if Rob Bell is a new Martin Luther, but at the time of the Reformation Martin Luther wasn’t Martin Luther.

There is an erosion that has taken place within evangelical communities today and Rob Bell strikes at the heart of that divide between whether you think God is inclusive or exclusive.

The worst thing you can be accused of in many evangelical settings today is to be called a "universalist." I've heard it a few times in the recent past as a "you don't want to go there" aside in conversations with other Christians. However, I must say that I would rather be accused of being a universalist, than be accused of being the most contemptible of religious types: "fundamentalist."

Another thing I noticed from the article was an incredibly ignorant statement by someone at Christianity Today, which makes me realize why I no longer subscribe to this magazine:

For Mark Galli, senior managing editor of Christianity Today, what concerns him about Love Wins is what he calls Rob Bell’s failure to behave like a real pastor.

He leaves readers with more questions because he hasn’t really done his job as a teacher, which is what a minister is supposed to be. Instead, he has become a provocateur.

You walk away thinking this is what Rob Bell teaches, not what the Bible teaches.

This is incredibly naive for two different reasons: Jesus did not answer all questions - he told stories. He didn't even explain what most of his parables meant and left his disciples confused more often than not. Also, a quality of a good teacher is someone who always leaves his students with more questions than answers. A very exasperated grade 3 student once blurted out to me: "Can't you ever give us a straight answer?" Well, no, I can't because I'm a teacher and I'm trying to be a good one.

Do you know what Mark Galli is describing as a good teacher? A fundamentalist. I hate that word and that way of thinking.

If anything does lead to hell, the fundamentalist way of thinking (no matter what religion) does.
Update: Here's an interesting article about the history behind the rejection of hell and universalism. Long story short: Bell's not the first to say these things and be rejected by the church.

President Obama is a Christian (Get Over It!)

I'm amazed how many people have a hard time believing that Obama is a Christian.  First of all, I counter: How do we know ANYONE is a "real Christian"?  I mean, if you do understand the Bible at all, then you know that only God really knows who is real.  Jesus said, "Why do you call me good? Only God is truly good." (Mark 10:18)  Or how about Jesus' rebuke that not everyone who calls him "Lord" will be acknowledged by him as a follower. (Matthew 7:22)

Secondly: Please consider that the word "Christian" has almost as many as different definitions as there are people who claim to be "Christian." I reject the notion that Christian must imply "Conservative Evangelical American," which is the hidden message that hides behind many of the diatribes against President Obama.

Thirdly: Listen to the President's recounting of his own past at the recent National Prayer Breakfast (below).  No, he did not grow up in a "Christian" home, but he became a Christian through conversion later in life.  So, he actually chose Christianity deliberately, not as some default position inherited via his family background.  Isn't this, then, an indication of someone who is actually the kind of Christian that the "born again" Christians are bragging about on Sundays?  I find it hard to believe that Evangelicals would have an issue with this testimony if were uttered by anyone else in their church on any given Sunday.

Lastly: Keep in mind something that I heard a musician say on the Drew Marshall Show : "When the word "Christian" is applied to anything other than a person, it's just a marketing strategy."  (I completely forgot who the person was - apologies to whomever.  I also am not sure of the exact quote.)  The question that I want to leave readers with, then is:  When you hear the word "Christian" being used, ask yourself "What are they selling?"  Now I'm not trying to imply, like the New Atheists, that all that is being "sold" is evil, but I will say it's important to keep in mind that ancient warning: "Buyer beware."

Imago Dei

I've begun teaching a grade 4 class here and I was talking one time with them about the concept of what it means to be created in the image of God. All of the kids, except for one, insisted that the idea of image was a physical one: that God had a real body. The one child who disagreed kept repeating, "No, God is a spirit!" Finally, I did weigh in that the one child was the one who had the idea and that the imago dei, or image of God, was not about the physical.

Now, we look at children and understand that developmentally, they go through stages of thinking and believing from the concrete to the more abstract. The idea of imago dei as a literal, physical concept is almost impossible for children to shake until they acheive a certain level.

It has occured to me recently that fundamentalist Christians who take umbrage with the concept that we have evolved at all are, in a sense, stuck at the level of thinking that imago dei is a physical idea. They struggle with, as I have in the past, the idea that we are just a few ticks off, genetically speaking, from the chimpanzee. The concept that we are mammals is uncomfortable for a fundamentalist and my idea here is that, in some unconscious way, they can't get over the idea that imago dei is physical is some way.

This is yet another way that fundamentalist thinking is really a betrayal of the core doctrines of Christianity.

Manhattan Declaration: Why I Cannot Sign It

I'm really struggling with this Manhattan Declaration. I cannot condone the legislation of morality and still believe in a country that is truly free.

Basically, the MD has three principles that it elaborates upon:

1.the sanctity of human life
2.the dignity of marriage as the conjugal union of husband and wife
3.the rights of conscience and religious liberty.

I will probably take days to elaborate and work through this in my head, but I must remain true to what I believe is the specific teachings of Jesus Christ. In some ways, I think the MD is right on, but in others, it doesn't go far enough. For example, if the sanctity of human life is such an issue: Why aren't Christians as a group crying out about the death penalty? Or condeming the Bush administration's throwing away of American and Iraqi lives in Iraq?

It says that the declaration is not partisan, which I don't believe for a minute.

If we believe in religious freedom and have extended that to believe in freedom and equality for all, why the obsession with marriage? Even if a group believes that an act is sinful, does that mean that it needs to be legislated as sinful?

Religious freedom implies freedom to not be religous. The document does not really endorse a free lifestyle, but a severely restricted one. I do believe that sex outside of marriage is not right, but I don't want it legislated to be illegal to have sex outside of marriage. I can't understand how allowing gay marriages will destroy society like a bad disaster movie.

I also am puzzled by the lack of "standing up" for important Christian values like grace and truth.

Where is the condemnation from Christians over the out and out lies being perpetrated by supposed Christians like Sarah Palin or the pretend Christians on Fox Noise? When are Christians going to condemn the name of Christ being peddled in the US as an exlusively right wing Republican product?

As I read the gospels, I see very little about sex and marriage from Christ. The only real statement that Jesus makes about government may be found in the often quoted "Give to Caesar what is Caesar, and to God what is God's". He even acknowledges the corrupt Roman governor, Pilate, as being appointed by God:

8When Pilate heard this, he was even more afraid, 9and he went back inside the palace. "Where do you come from?" he asked Jesus, but Jesus gave him no answer. 10"Do you refuse to speak to me?" Pilate said. "Don't you realize I have power either to free you or to crucify you?"

11Jesus answered, "You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above. Therefore the one who handed me over to you is guilty of a greater sin."

12From then on, Pilate tried to set Jesus free, but the Jews kept shouting, "If you let this man go, you are no friend of Caesar. Anyone who claims to be a king opposes Caesar."

from John 19

What am I trying to say here? Christianity should have nothing to do with politics. The church I grew up in may have been fundamentalist in some ways, but I can't recall being told that to be a Christian, I had to be a Republican.

I'm pissed off about the Catholic bishops putting conditions on their charity work, which is not Christian at all. Grace, a central tenant of Christianity is being ignored by the majority of Christians and it must be reasserted.

Love, Grace and Truth: That's what's missing in the Manhattan Declaration.

Subtle Fundamentalism

I spent a lot of time thinking about Fundamentalism over spring break - Yes, I think it's fun...why do you ask? - Anyway, I wrote a short summary paper about fundamentalism. Looking at the current so-called "war on terror", Craig Unger points out that this war is really a war about religious fundamentalism (both Islamic and Christian) versus the modern world. Terry Eagleton points out that fundamentalism is a "textual affair" - it 'worships' dead text. The very act of preaching should negate fundamentalism, because as soon as we open our mouth - we are interpreting in a new way. Paul Ricoeur shuddered at the very idea of a "sacred text" - because Christianity is supposed to be about worshipping Christ, not the very text that speaks of him.

Fundamentalism is often characterized as obvious - thundering, smashing its way through society. However, I'm beginning to realize how subtle it can be. I stumbled upon this quote in a magazine for Christian school teachers:

"If Christianity is truth, then Christian education is the only true education and therefore the only practical education. There is no education, no truth - nothing - without God, the eternal author of reality."

(quote is attributed to David Claerbaut, Faith and Learning on the Edge)

Oh, really? It seems like a nice comfortable, perhaps pithy kind of quote, but I will contend that it is an example of how subtle fundamentalism will be.

Let's unpack it a bit by looking first at its conclusion: no education without God, no truth without God... Right away, I begin thinking that the rain falls on the evil and the good, doesn't it? If this is true, then isn't this quote a slap in the face of any kind of public education. Does this mean that Muslims could never make an important discovery or speak truth - ever? Obviously, that cannot be true. Not every invention, every innovation, every insight on this planet was initiated and completed by a Christian.

Wait a second....let's back up to the If...then statement...

If Christianity is truth.....

Interesting assumption. The obvious question: Is Christianity truth? Well, I'm not so sure about that. What is Christianity? A belief system...worldview...an interpretation. Christianity is practiced by those who claim to be following Jesus. Christianity look, sounds, and is experienced differently by different people in different cultures in different ways. How can the practice of following Christ by truth?

Christ never said this. He did say: "I am the way, the truth and the life..." Perhaps we are proceeding from false assumptions or am I being fundamentalistic in my interpretation? *shudder* Well, let's put that aside for now....

So Christ/God is TRUTH. So it must follow that truth is embedded in Creation and all people, who are created in God's image, will respond to it in different ways. Therefore, an atheist may discover a deep, hidden truth that, yes, even Christians can benefit from.

Is Christian education the only 'true' education....nope, can't be. Well, at least it can't be based on this line of reasoning. Sometimes in the intense competitiveness between schools, we need to 'sell' the Christian school to make it 'look' better. Perhaps this kind of thinking is a result of that - for fundamentalism is, ultimately, a fear of non-being, of death, according to Eagleton. Some schools are just not able to compete against the government funding of public schools and are fighting for survival. Fundamentalism, ultimately, never works, though. Clearer thinking is needed.

Adjective VS Noun

The word is Christian. Quick: Is it an adjective or a noun? Answer: In the Bible, it is a noun. However, we (the Church) have turned it almost exclusively into an adjective. Worse, I've even seen it turned into that most hated of word forms: an adverb *shudders*: 'Christianly'

What's the big deal? Well, I'll tell ya: Putting the label 'Christian' on anything be it music, books or schools implies that it is all the way God, Christ, wants it to be. The label 'Christian' leads to Christians (that's a noun there) assuming that it is the best. The garbage that has the Christian label on it today is astounding. This is the 'white-washed tomb' that Jesus alluded to. I'm so tired of religion and I'm so wanting to follow Christ. I want to BE a Christian, not just have it be just a label over my head.

Christians wonder why they are not always taken seriously and they only have to peek in a 'Christian' fiction book with it's poor, predictable writing to see how shallow we look. It has been said that the North American church is a 'mile wide and an inch deep' - Nothing displays that more than these attempts to mimic popular culture.

Music? Most songs lack content and barely have a complete thought in them. They are sung 6 to 7 times over to try to elicit feeling. Sometimes you feel like crap and all the repition of schmaltzy 'love me' lyrics isn't going to help. Most of the Psalms are arguments with God. Not saying he's my celestial pal!

Christians need to start setting trends - not just following them. If we are followers of the One God who created all...then we should be shaking the world up on a regular basis.

Searching for My Denominational Connections

I grew up in a fundamentalist, non-denominational, evangelical church. This was an interesting experience that left me with a firm grounding in what the Bible says. I also learned to appreciate what a good, exegisis of the Bible through a sermon could sound like. And I desperately miss the organ, played by the extremely talented Dr. Jerry Wright. Nothing in modern church music - I refuse to call music 'worship' as it oversimplifies and destroys the true meaning of what worship is - can match the sound of a well played organ. Thank you Dr. Wright!!!

The side-effect of this experience was that I had no idea of what a denomination was. I assumed that there were two (and only two) kinds of churches. What I went to, which I called "Christian" and then there were the other churches, which are called "Catholic". I had also assumed in my black and white child's mind that only the churches labelled "Christian" were the 'right' churches. Sorry, Mom, but that's only what the little me thought!

Then my Christian life became complicated by going to a Christian High School. Here's what a conversation in eighth grade went for me:

Other student: What kind of church you go to?
me: A Christian church.
Other student (laughs, rolls eyes): Yeah, but What KIND?

I'll save you the trouble of reading further and state that eventually I came to realize there were "little" differences like, Baptist, Presbyterian, and People Who Shout Alot But Were Still White and Black Churches. That's about what I had figured on my own. Through required Church History courses I learned about Luther and figured that the Lutherans came from him. Brilliant, wasn't I? I leaned a little about Calvin and nothing about Menno Simons that I can recall. But I didn't realize that Calvin inspired denominations of his own.

Then I went to Colombia and met my future wife, Ruth, who was a Mennonite and married into a Mennonite family. I now attend a Mennonite Brethren Church and don't forget the Brethren because there are different flavors of Mennonites. I am quite comfortable now with the MB's although religion does sometimes get in the way, as, I realize now, it does with all churches.

Then I was hired at a Christian School. I assumed it was a Christian School based on the pattern that I learned though High School and through my teaching experiences in Colombia. Nope, turns out there's another denominational flavor that I needed to discover: Christian Reformed, based on the teachings of that guy I only heard a little about in eighth grade, which is called grade 8 in Canada: John Calvin.

It took me a long time to figure out what 'reformed' meant and the definitions varied and straight answers are, apparently, non-existant. I struggled when I first encountered it, not really understanding why. It forced me to read voraciously, which is a good thing that probably would make John Calvin proud, but eventually led to me rejecting which probably wouldn't. I can't embrace TULIP. Maybe in another article I'll go into detail why I reject the 5 points of Calvinism, but let me sum it up here: Free Will is just too important to reject, which I see rejected in Calvinism. I believe the real key to understanding of what "made in God's image" means is to understand free will. The real highlight here, is that suddenly, after all my reading and prayer, I can see in other's writings were I agree or disagree. For example, I read a quote from a book called Heaven Is Not My Home, which says that "God created culture" and even implies that cars are from Him too. Nope, I don't believe that - the God Image gives us free will and imagination to create something and those are People creations which, I will concede, my have God's inspiration behind it, but are, in the end our own creation.

Does that mean I undermine other denominations? No - In fact I realize that even through the most greedy TV preacher, sometimes people come to a real, genuine knowledge of Christ despite the presentation. We must, as Christians in this post modern world, realize that there is no ONE Christian worldview. Just looking at how different cultures see things make it obvious.

Now, I wait for the other shoe to drop...

A Favourite Bible Verse

I love this verse. It's from The Message by Eugene Peterson. It sort of describes perfectly the approach we are supposed to be taking when thinking about the kingdom of God. I have been going through a lot of rethinking about my "worldview" ~ in beliefs and what they mean to my teaching and living life. Here's the verse:

Then you can see how every student well-trained in God's kingdom is like the owner of a general store who can put his hands on anything you need, old or new, exactly when you need it."

~ Matthew 13:52

I've always had this approach for teaching, learning to be eclectic and learn from the old and use what can be used from the new.

Now I'm not saying that I am denying the Trinity or anything, but I'm rethinking things along the lines of postmodern thinking. Thinking about things like: What did Jesus really mean when he talked about the kingdom of God/heaven? What is hell? What kernel of truth is there in things like pluralism, etc.? I'm finally starting to 'get it' and realize what is needed. So I am reading a lot of Brian McLaren right now and I am fascinated by the conversation going on through the Emergent Village site.

Anyway, that's what I was thinking during my lunchtime today!

On Control

I have a sign that says, "God is in Control" in my classroom. I haven't hung it up for a few years, because I was just having a hard time imagining what, exactly, I'm saying when I say that. Is God at a big panel, pressing buttons, pulling levers. No, I don't think that can be true. We have this big, mechanistic view of God being at a big computer. But we don't control every aspect of the computers we work on. I don't really understand how these words get from my computer screen to yours. I use it anyway. A lot of what the computer does is automatic, even though I am involved with the computer. It would do nothing on its own. I wonder if that's what it means for God to be in control.

One of the advantages of teaching the same Bible curriculum to the same grade, grade 3, for the past 8 years, is you really get to know those parts of the Bible REALLY well! I taught the Old Testament, Genesis to about Joshua, every year. I really began to think about this idea of control especially as I wandered through the wilderness for forty years with the Israelites. I wandered with them through 8 different classes of grade 3 students and I began to understand something. It came to me in a flash one day. Something that should have been obvious, but wasn't until I went through the stories over and over again: God was not controlling the Israelites at all. He only gives choices.

I love the line God gives Bruce in the movie, Bruce Almighty. God is allowing Bruce to have His powers for a certain amount of time and gives him the ground rules. The big rule is: "Don't mess with free will!"

That's it, exactly! Throughout the whole Bible, God is stepping back and letting people make choices - to choose. This really changed how I saw my classroom. I don't 'control' the class, in fact I have come to despise that word in reference to human beings. I can't think of any good that has ever come from controlling people at any time in history. In fact, I can only think of evil coming from attempts at control. I'm involved with my class - I offer choices.

So, when someone asks me, when the kids are being annoying, wild, or whatever, "Can't you control those kids?" I really, honestly, have to say "NO!" As for the sign in my classroom? I still have it up, because it makes me think. I realized that even though the kids may not read everything I put up, I DO! And I need sayings, quotes, etc, to catch my eye and make me think carefully about what I believe. Is God in control? Somehow, I would say, Yes, He is, but God don't make no puppets, either!